Ah, journeys of self discovery, not all that bad afterall.
Hmm.. been thinking lately about stuff.. talking to Yo about it online.. thought i would share with you guys..
So i was saying that i think it really could be a curse. Every girl I meet will tell me how i’ll make some other girl very happy. What a sad existance. I’m also trying to figure out the psychological term for wanting everyone to like me. Yo mentioned ‘people pleaser’ which is about right i guess. But that’s not it, there’s more. I think i also crave attention. And i like to get compliments. Low self-esteem? Insecurity? Inferiority complex? Who knows… Then Yo said something about sometimes she wonders if i’m having an identity crisis. Like i’m not sure of what kind of person i really am and discovering my personality through others..
And that was absolutely right. I don’t know myself and i need other people to tell me. And the rest of the conversation went like this:
< @Yo> well we all hav blind spots that need others to let us noe
< @Yo> but impressions may not always b accurate
< @Yo> thats what i think la
< @Yo> coz the impressions others hav of me r hardly me at all
< @Yo> heh, deceptive eh =p
< @Santino> but.. usually.. i mean..
< @Santino> if u think about it..
< @Santino> if quite a number of ppl say something about you, and u think it’s not you at all… are they all wrong? we are blinded by our own ideas of who we are..
< @Yo> dats a gd one
< @Yo> it depends lor.on a case by case basis.
< @Santino> yea.. thanks.. i surprised myself too.. haahhaha.. i’m so wise.. lol.
< @Yo> haha
< @Yo> but ya, ur humour is an asset
< @Santino> thanks.
< @Yo> welcome.
So that’s the conclusion i came to today.. I should have seen it coming. I was never able to reflect on myself.. or answer the question “Tell me more about yourself.” I would always reply, ‘i have no idea, you’ll have to ask my friends.’ I’m glad that i’m still discovering things about myself everyday…
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